Surgery and other losses

I did edit this and then Blogger kind of...crashed. I will reedit with the edits in italics. Let's hope it sticks this time :)

I need to write about what happened so bad that I'm on my iPhone doing so!

Yesterday I began having little twinges on my lower left right side and said at one point: I feel like I'm ovulating. Little did I know, I wasn't far off...

Around 6:30 I really had to go to the bathroom so I put a screaming Jack into his crib and never left the toilet. I couldn't move; it felt like my insides were stabbing each other and we thougt it mint might be my appendix. Todd called Jen and Woody to see if they could take Jack and we ran to the ER. After some preliminary tests, we went in for an ultrasound to rule out pregnancy. While in there, Todd and I found out that my urine pregnancy test came back positive.

For about 5 minutes we were actually excited. However,our excitement was short lived when the tech couldn't find anything in my uterus. Turns out I was 6 weeks along and the pregnancy was ectopic. We were devastated but happy in the knowledge that we are able to get pregnant on our own.

Last night they did surgery and removed my right Fallopian tube but my ovary is still intact. I am glad this all happened so fast so that I couldn't get attached to the feta. This should obviously be "fetus" but apparently the iPhone doesn't recognize that as a term that one would used. There needs to be a smarter word selector that takes context into consideration. Really, I wasn't attached to FETA? I love feta. I don't feel like I suffered a loss. I am not upset that I am losing a tube. I am thankful that we caught it in time and that I have my life. I am thankful that I got to hold Jack before my surgery but mostly I am thankful for Jack.

He was such a good boy at Jen's and then at Amy's. I love him so much and can't wait to see his loving smiling face. He is my miracle baby and I'm fine if it's just him in our lives for now. My husband has also been amazing. He has been supportive and I am glad he was able to go home and get some sleep last night.

I will probably come back and edit this later when I get home. I apologize for any spelling or grammar errors!!